Singing the same old tune

Last night I was harassed by feelings of despair that made it difficult to get to sleep. I couldn’t stop thinking about these people at work, who for one reason or another I seem to encounter difficulties with. I was falling into depression for the first time in a good while; knowing what I had [...]

Tuesday night I was given cause for concern when Andy called me, sounding desperate. He’s been having a rough time recently, unemployed and searching for that job that will change everything. It’s not just being poor, it’s being trapped at home, having all your choices taken away from you, not having any reason to get [...]

There was a minor incident, yesterday at work, which may need some thinking on. It had mostly been a great day. We had our quarterly business meeting, where everyone had to gather in the conference room to listen to speeches about the company’s amazing growth during the past three months. After the speeches we were [...]

I’ve done it again. Put myself in a situation where my recovery may have ended up seriously compromised. It all started off innocuously enough, as I was invited by Ethan to a party at the place where he has recently begun to do voluntary work. You’d think: how bad can it be? The moment I [...]

Really good day at work – as insanely busy as ever, but maybe for the third or fourth time in the past few weeks, it was actually fun. This morning I decided to draw up a daily timetable that I will try and stick to from now on, to make life more simple really, and [...]

Upset for the best part of the day because, in my new full time role at work, I am seemingly being handed more and more responsibility every day. Which would be fine, except that I was told before my ‘promotion’ that the role wouldn’t change that much. I’m OK with the increasingly complex tasks that [...]

It’s the longest day of the year, and not for the first time, I have not been able to decide whether to go to a meeting or not. I wanted to go to a meeting, but then I realised that that would mean having to pay to eat out, and because it’s nearly the end [...]

On Thursday I got the news I had been waiting for, when the boss told me I could start working full time for the company. Having waited for this news for four months, it came as quite a relief. It means I’ll have a lot more money coming in every month – finally I might [...]

On Thursday I found out that Jan had been exaggerating a little when he said I’d given away £5,000 of the company’s money – it was actually only £3,000, as I found when I did a little investigation of my own. Still, I didn’t feel much better about my position in the company by the [...]

 About thirty-six hours ago I arrived at work, prepared for but not entirely excited about the day ahead. I had my overnight bag with me, as did everyone else, and it instantly felt as if I was going on a school trip. Several people made that precise remark as we all bundled onto the [...]