The party was, in the end, not too bad. I got to work at midday on Saturday, and waited outside along with everyone else for the coach that would take us to Surrey. It was the worst bit about the whole thing: waiting for the coach with colleagues who I wouldn’t necessarily choose to spend [...]

I just got home after spending a pleasant couple of hours in Soho with my closest friend. It nearly turned into a proper night out, but in the end our tiredness won out against the old desire to be like everyone else our age, staying out until three in the morning. It’s only midnight but [...]

Tuesday night I was given cause for concern when Andy called me, sounding desperate. He’s been having a rough time recently, unemployed and searching for that job that will change everything. It’s not just being poor, it’s being trapped at home, having all your choices taken away from you, not having any reason to get [...]

Seems like things have been pretty static the past couple of weeks, which is why I haven’t written much here. I’ve written a lot elsewhere, reaching 180 pages in my latest novel which I am happily enjoying in its creation. I’m almost certainly on track for completing my fourth book in sobriety – the third [...]

There was a minor incident, yesterday at work, which may need some thinking on. It had mostly been a great day. We had our quarterly business meeting, where everyone had to gather in the conference room to listen to speeches about the company’s amazing growth during the past three months. After the speeches we were [...]

After avoiding Ethan through Sunday and Monday, I finally spoke to him honestly last night about how bad I had felt on Saturday. I tried not to make it seem as if I blamed him for the social disaster which nearly led me to a drink, though it may have come across that way. I [...]

I’ve done it again. Put myself in a situation where my recovery may have ended up seriously compromised. It all started off innocuously enough, as I was invited by Ethan to a party at the place where he has recently begun to do voluntary work. You’d think: how bad can it be? The moment I [...]

Since Sunday things have improved dramatically on the spiritual and emotional front, as I guess they do after revelations of a personal nature. I haven’t thought about Gareth much, nor have I thought about sex nearly as much as I normally would. I haven’t been tempted to use porn or to set up a new [...]

Really good day at work – as insanely busy as ever, but maybe for the third or fourth time in the past few weeks, it was actually fun. This morning I decided to draw up a daily timetable that I will try and stick to from now on, to make life more simple really, and [...]

Upset for the best part of the day because, in my new full time role at work, I am seemingly being handed more and more responsibility every day. Which would be fine, except that I was told before my ‘promotion’ that the role wouldn’t change that much. I’m OK with the increasingly complex tasks that [...]