I’m going to Barcelona tomorrow! I have a whole week off work, starting now, and I will be spending five days of it in Spain. I’ve never been to Spain before, and it appeared on this year’s list of places to go, when I realised that I could easily afford it. I don’t want to [...]
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Tuesday night I was given cause for concern when Andy called me, sounding desperate. He’s been having a rough time recently, unemployed and searching for that job that will change everything. It’s not just being poor, it’s being trapped at home, having all your choices taken away from you, not having any reason to get [...]
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Seems like things have been pretty static the past couple of weeks, which is why I haven’t written much here. I’ve written a lot elsewhere, reaching 180 pages in my latest novel which I am happily enjoying in its creation. I’m almost certainly on track for completing my fourth book in sobriety – the third [...]
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Three Years
It’s been exactly three years to the day since I last had an alcoholic drink. Unbelievable? Extremely. Happy? Mostly. I wouldn’t say I was entirely jubilant today, mainly because of the several close shaves that I have gone through in recent weeks. I’m fairly convinced that those close shaves were in anticipation of this anniversary [...]
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On Thursday I got the news I had been waiting for, when the boss told me I could start working full time for the company. Having waited for this news for four months, it came as quite a relief. It means I’ll have a lot more money coming in every month – finally I might [...]
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Somehow I’ve managed to spend my monthly wages before the month has even begun. I decided to book my next holiday abroad for August – I was determined to go to Spain this year – and now it’s all paid for, and after rent, bills, food and travel I have nothing left for the rest [...]
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I finally saw my doctor yesterday, nearly two weeks after I should have seen her, and got a renewal on the medication from which I was experiencing severe withdrawal. She wasn’t too impressed with me when I mentioned that I had allowed myself to go into withdrawal. Apparently I’ll be much better off bringing the [...]
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Sushi for the soul
I think I am becoming addicted to sushi. In the last few weeks I have eaten it every day for lunch, and I can’t seem to get enough of it. Yesterday whilst in town I plucked up the courage to go into a sushi restaurant on my own, I was so keen not to end [...]
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Ironing
Tonight I picked up an iron for the first time in about eight years. It needed doing. Some of my clothes were seriously creased from the last wash, and I’m old enough not to have to go out wearing creased clothes. For eight years the thought of using an iron has terrified me – at [...]
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I’m almost ready to give up on this whole dating business again. At the weekend I met my second Guardian Soulmates date; it seemed to go really well, we got along, I thought we would at least stay in touch. A few hours after the date was over I got a text telling me that [...]
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